Wednesday, August 27, 2014
We lost my mom a year ago today.
I know that parents are supposed to go before their children. But I never, ever want my children to experience the absolute heart ache that comes with losing a parent before their time. After a year, the pain is still so great that I think of it as this separate "thing." This thing that I sometimes peak in on and prod it a little...but only for a second or two. Any longer and I won't be able to stop crying. I never want my kids to experience anything like this.
I hope I live so long that I become a huge physical and emotional burden to my children (like they need to wipe my 100 year old butt & change my diapers or feel guilty because they missed their weekly visit to the home type of burden) and they are relieved when I finally die.